I have NO IDEA what I'm doing !

I am scared out of my mind with not a clue of what I am doing but I am doing it anyways...here we go!

“Don't fear failure, be afraid of not taking a chance”

I have NO IDEA what I'm doing!

I've been out of high school for almost TEN years...omgsh I'm not sure how it got to be ten years already. Every year that goes by it feels like I just graduated. I wish I did just graduate because I would remember how to write a proper sentence, or make sure I'm adding the proper verbs, adverbs, adjectives and make sure my grammar is correct. Since it's been TEN years, my sentences are going to be grammatically incorrect sometimes. I might miss spell words or not make sense but I am human and I am going to make mistakes in life and in my blog posts.

Over the years my life has been a roller coaster and I've come to learn more about myself than I thought was possible. I really thought I knew the person I looked at in the mirror every morning. I thought since I was over 25 my life was supposed to be figured out already. I thought if I tried doing everything right than nothing bad would happen. But as I continue to live each year, I realize I have NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING and that's okay!

I don't know what I am doing with this web site, YouTube and hours of button pushing has been somewhat helpful ( I'll figure it out as the days go on). I also am not sure of how I want these blogs to flow. Do I start from the very beginning like baby Liz? Do I start when I started to recognize that I was adopted? Do I start where I started to recognize that I was different than kids in my class/stores and started experiencing racism? Do I start with moving to North Carolina? Do I start with finding my birth family? Do I start with being sexually assaulted? Do I start with HIGH SCHOOL? Do I start with my 20s? Do I start with Breast Cancer or moving to the Pacific North West (PNW)? I don't know where to start but where ever I do start its okay because life isn't planned!

(I'll make sure everything makes sense, I promise)

I DO KNOW what I want to do with my readers...I want to be transparent, I want to be open, I want to be HONEST and I want to be REAL! Being honest and real are my main goals as I tell my stories/journeys. Everything that I share in my blogs are going to be raw, real and honest, so you might need to Grab The Tissues!